Feeling helpless in the face of this experience is a surrender to 'what is', accepting whatever life dishes out to me, even though I know it is only a limited view of the 'seeing-knowing' that I believe is my source (everything).
Jenny told me tonight that I was behaving like a 'born again' again.(the above does sound a little religious...)
If being is everything, then every thing is part of being. But being doesn't have parts because it is everything. So, the idea of part of being is/can only be a mental construct. An idea. An illusion.
So all that exists is everything. Nothing less. Anything less is an impossibility.
I, as a separate something, cannot exist. But I do exist, so if not something separate then . . .
it's a rich spring night
in the autumn of my life
yum, seasons are great!